Have you ever felt so lost you don’t know if you can find your way out. So frustraited with the way things are going you just don’t want to get out of bed anymore. I’m lost right now. I thought that maybe our vacation would help. It didn’t even help a little bit. If anything it made it worse.

We went to Colorado to see our family and friends. For me family and my friends are very important to me. I think the reason it didn’t help is the right family and friends weren’t there. The ones who truly know me I didn’t get to see. I never get to see them. The other thing is that there are things that I want to talk about or write about here that I just can’t. There are things in my life that no one knows about. Atleast that I don’t think they know about. If they do know I don’t know they know. This causes me not to talk about them or if I do talk about it it is very rarly.

I’ve struggled with possilby creating another blog were I can talk about the things that are bothering me the most. I just can’t bring myself to do it for fear of the people that I don’t want to know how I truly am doing finding it. If anyone has any suggestions let me know. I need some help right now.


3 Responses to “Lost”

  1. loonigrrl Says:

    Hi, I was just randomly looking through blogs, and yours caught my eye. I’m sorry you’re going through such a rough time right now. I know how it feels to be lost and alone even when surrounded by dozens of people all day long. I think it is very important to be able to vent freely and honestly without restricting yourself, and in that sense, I think an anonymous blog would be a good idea because if you’re worried about what people will see then you’ll just keep it bottled up and that won’t help you. On the other hand, I also think it would be good for you to talk openly and honestly with someone you know and trust. I’ve found that it’s ultimately more helpful if I discuss a problem with someone, even if they’re just a shoulder to cry on. Or if your reasons for feeling lost involve a person or persons, then maybe (and i know it’s sounds easier than it actually is, i know it’s hard to trust and be open about certain things) they can help you find your way out. But if you’re not ready or if what I said doesn’t really apply (i’m sorry, so far I’ve only read the last couple entries so this may not make sense) then I would certainly recommend an anonymous blog. It’s worth a try at least, right? That’s pretty much why I decided to make mine that way. I haven’t had anything to really vent about yet, but I know I will one of these days 🙂

  2. WaAngel Says:

    So I’m home from camping now. You need to IM me ASAP. We can chat.

  3. Douglas Cootey Says:

    First of all, I like your new layout. Did you do it? Great header and the color scheme is fascinating. Gives the yellow text a luminous quality. Very nice.

    Secondly, you don’t actually need a blog to write your most private feelings. A notepad, Moleskine, or plain ole journal will do. Of course, if you fear somebody getting their hands on it…you could always open up a livejournal account and set it up with bogus info so nobody would ever know it was you. Or you could set up an entirely different blogger account and blog to do the same thing. That can get confusing, so you might want to use a different browser. IE for this one and Firefox for the new blog, for example.

    Sorry to hear you’re frustrated. My guess is that the vacation only helped you escape from whatever is buggin’ you and once it was over you had to face your demons again. Writing about it is a good idea, however. Good luck with that.

    The Splintered Mind – Overcoming Neurological Disabilities With Lots Of Humor And Attitude

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