Bet you have been wondering where I vanished to?  Life has taken part of it.  The rest has been sucked into Myspace and Facebook Apps.  I have become addicted to the apps that they offer.  At first it was all I could do to find the new best app they offered.  It came to the point where I couldn’t keep up with them all.  So in the end I settled with a handful of them.  One in particular that I spend most of my time on is Superpoke Pets or SPP to us overly addicted.

I have become so addicted that I now publish a blog for the users for reference purposes, SPP Addict.  The others that I play are Farmtown, Farmville, Rollercoaster Kingdom, and a few others.  So if you ever want to catch me the best place to find me is on Myspace or Facebook.  I seem to always be on one of them.

Though I am addicted to these apps I am doing my best to start blogging here again.  The problem is life hasn’t been very eventful lately and I haven’t had any ideas to post about.  Working on that issue so I hope to see you all soon.

I have always been a HUGE fan of Halloween.  At our house we go all out.  Well we try to this years is the best one yet.  Take a look!!

Wow I have neglected this blog recently!!  Haven’t really had much to post about.  Life has been about the same.  I work, take care of the kids and the house and spent time with friends.

Last month was Cera’s 10th birthday.  Both my kids are now in double digits.  They are growing so fast I just can’t believe it.  When school starts next month they will be in the fifth grade.  The last year of elementary school.

I will post new pictures of the kids later.  Can’t seem to get them to post right now.

Has it really been four years?  Well Happy 4th Birthday this blog of mine!!

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That was the conversation I had with myself already tonight at work.  I think have realized I have lost it more than I thought I had.

So in my 30 years on this earth I haven’t had very many jobs.

My first was working for the parks and recrecation department during the summer.  I was an assistant for the summer park program.  That summer I was the tannest I have ever been.  I once had a picture of how dark I was that summer but somewhere along the line it has gotten lost. My second job was like most young girls.  I babysat for the same family for almost 4 years.  The only reason I stopped watching her son was that I had a child of my own.  The third job was bagging groceries at family owned grocery store.  That job only lasted for about 3 months and like most teens thought it was boring and so I stopped going.  Then I did the inbound call center thing (which really sucked.)  Next up was working at Office Depot.  Yes I worked at Office Depot for almost 2 years.  At the time I loved that job.

After I left there I started my first job in the hotel business.  Since then I have worked at 7 different hotels, two different brands and in two different states.  So today marks my 5th year at the same hotel.  YAY ME!!!  This is the longest I have ever been able to stay at one job.  I ussually get restless at two years and either quit or find something else.  I have no idea what has kept me here this long but so far I don’t see me leaving.

So happy workaversary to me!  5 years and still going.  Oh did I mention I even get a plaque and a giftie from Marriott for staying here for 5 years.  I’m so excited!!

Over there on my blogroll you will see a blog I read pretty much daily.  I can always count on at least getting a chuckle out of this comic strip.  Being Five just plain rocks!!!  So today I go and visit this awesome blog to find a great cartoon.

I am totally one of those Twilight people.  I have seen the movie twice, read all the books and my myspace layout is Twilight.  So to say the least I thought this was funny.  Let me tell you I need funny right now.

So I heard from my aunt about when they have scheduled my moms services.  They have been scheduled for May 16 at 1:00pm.  If anyone knew her and wants to go let me know and I will get you more information.

I think for me in general I am doing okay.  I have my moments when I just feel like crying, crawling in a hole and staying there.  When those moments happen I remember that she is free of her illness.  That even though it is sad that she is gone she is  free.  So after about a week of thinking and contemplation I have decided how I feel.  I bet you are all wondering how I am.  Truly you don’t want to know because the way I feel isn’t how most people “think” I should feel.  So to save hurt feelings I just won’t say it here.

So I am back from a “vacation.”  I took spring break off to spend time with my kids and they ended up going to see granny in Colorado for the week.  On top of that I get a call from my sister Thursday.  To get a call from my sister is some what monumental.  It means one of two things.  Something good or something bad has happened in the family.  I don’t have a great relationship with anyone in my family.  So this time the news I got was not of the good kind and sort of shocking.  My sister was calling to tell me my mother had passed away.

For me it wasn’t one of those OH MY GOSH moments.  I haven’t talked to her in almost 8 years.  When I moved to Oklahoma my husband and I made the decision to not talk to her anymore.  Due to her illness we thought it best for our kids to not have contact with her.

The thought of not having her around seems sort of abstract.  I really didn’t have her around for the last 8 years so being told she is gone forever seems unreal.  Yes there are moments of greif and sadness when I think that I will never be able to tell her the reason I made the choice I did and that I really do love her with all my heart.  My best friend wrote a post on her blog that made me cry.  That in some strange way said what I felt.

Everyone is giving me there condolences on her passing.  To me it seems like a release for her.  From the voices she heard on a constant basis.  A release from the seclusion that her decease left her with.

Right now I just feel blank.  I don’t know how to feel.  I know I should feel sadness for my loss.  Though as of yet I don’t feel I have lost anything.  I also feel bad for not feeling anything at all.  I think that is the feeling I am dealing with right now.  The feeling bad for not feeling bad.

As of right now a memorial service is tentatively set for May 16.  If anyone knew her wants to attend please let me know and I will contact you with more information as I get it.